Stretching My Literary Legs

It’s been a long time since I have written something. A really, really long time.

So long that, if my inner author were a person, their legs would have a catch in them; a strange, but expected, sort of spasm…

It happens when your surroundings are cold, and you haven’t used them in a while. Your legs exist for walking, for running, for supporting your weight. And when you don’t use them, their purpose remains unfulfilled. They spasm, they hurt, they need to be stretched… And that is how my inner author feels right now – paralysed, convulsing and unmoving out of laziness.

Life has been busy, sure. Expected from an Indian IT engineer, who has just joined the largest industry in the most competitive country. But has it really been so busy that I cannot churn out even one or two small articles? Or perhaps my mind has been so boggled by work, and tension that I have no fresh thoughts to dole out on paper?

Even before I type it, I know the answer’s a big fat NO.

Because even now, my mind is filled with a hundred thoughts. Even now, as I lay on this bed, I know I can spare at least a few minutes for writing. And yet, I don’t.

Laziness can be one of the reasons. But, I think a more fitting reason is fear.

You see, before when I used to write, it was a hobby. A secondary outlet for my primary thoughts. I always had someone to talk to, but writing always gave me the creative freedom to see my thoughts once more, experience my interactions and express my views for a second time in a more relaxed fashion. I could re-read my own thoughts & views and ponder their meanings.

Sadly, since I have joined the supposedly depressing I.T. Industry and its accompanying independent bachelorhood, writing has become my primary outlet. And that has baggage.

The kind of baggage which includes me having to confront my inner fears. Clearing out my conflicting thoughts and inner dilemmas. Analysing my thoughts. ALL ON MY OWN.

And that is overwhelming. What if I write something down and I hate it? Or myself? Or my thoughts? Or it shows me a truth or outcome that I don’t want to see?

What if my inner fears get realised? What if my future choices get weighed down by random pangs of jealousy? What if I start to hate people I don’t want to hate, or admit love for people I never thought I had the capacity to love?

This… Post. This mini post – – Its me attempting to break out of my own mental prison. I have to improve. I want to grow. And I don’t want any stupid nonsense ever affecting my judgment or actions (although it’s perfectly normal and hence, not nonsense or stupid).

So here it is – my first try at opening myself up again to the idea of writing. My first push, my first leap, my first dash into a better future… At least my first in a while. I hope to continue writing something regularly.

All my problems, some of them including jealousy, loneliness, uncertainty, anger and love, will surely be sorted out. And doling them out here will only help. I mean it has to, right?

Besides, my mind is like a pressure cooker right now.

And I need a whistle to let out some steam. What better way to do so than by stretching my literary legs?

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What is the best way to deal with hurt?

Sometimes questions are more important than answers. And so, here is mine to you, dear reader: What is the best way to deal with hurt?

There are many kinds of hurt. It can be a simple thing: like a secret that someone you love kept from you; or it can be devastating kinda hurt: like someone broke up with you, fought with you or left you all alone. Hurt is hurt. It doesn’t matter if it was big, or small. It matters how you deal with it.

Let us say that you have just been through a terrible situation which caused you hurt. Call it Event A for sake of ease. This Event A caused you pain, whether largely or minutely doesn’t matter. It was painful, is what is important. Our minds are fragile, our hearts tender. On top of that, everyone is built differently, so one might deal with this strange sort of pain in one way, while his friend might deal with it some other way. Your sibling might resort to one way, while you might be more comfortable using some other method to curb the pain.

So, reader, Bleedster, and my dear friend, WHAT is YOUR personal way to deal with hurt? The methods vary and here are a few of them I know.

One is by revenge. The most popular one that I know.

Revenge is the best medicine, revenge is the best revenge, revenge can help you move on… So many things said about this healer. But does it work?

Let us say you have been through Event A. It caused serious damage in your Almost Perfect World. Your mind swims in agony, betrayal, anger and so many other complex emotions. That clever brain of yours lists the method to cause pain to that person that made Event A happen, and finally concludes that Revenge is the best way to put this situation in the past.

You toy with the idea of Tit for Tat. You scheme, you plan and you prepare. You ignore the poor little conscience you have that is begging you to stop. Of course, REVENGE will make them pay, those Event A doers! And then you carry it out. For some people, seeing the Event A-ers in pain from your Revenge helps. You get your peace, your pain is now theirs, too. And you move on.

But then there are those people, the REALLY GOOD ones. They have never done anything bad in life, or have done it only a little. They don’t like the idea of hurting others BUT they say to themselves ‘Desperate times calls for desperate measures’  and they do end up carrying out their Revenge Plan.

And then they feel even more horrible. The big hole in the heart (or mind) remains gaping as ever. The gap is now widened by your conscience finally becoming more powerful and guilt takes over. (Sounds familiar, Kunal?) And then they do all sorts of other stuff. The lucky ones manage to forgive themselves. The others do not.

Anyways, that is one way to deal with pain. With more pain. Whether you give it to others (by means of Revenge) or to yourself (by depressing yourself more) is your choice.

Although I would like to add a small quote that popped into my head regarding this:
“A mind that plots and schemes is a mind that rots and screams.”

Two is the Sane.

They are called Sane because they are stable. They are mentally sound. They don’t have a beaming ego. And after all, hurt is what boosts your ego right? And without a huge ego, how can you get mad?

These Sanes use the best, most ideal method to deal with hurt: Move on.

Its funny how they can manage to forgive, forget and not look back on it. Hurt, small or big, leaves a long lasting impression on the mind’s flesh, yet these Gods mull over it like it was nothing. They cry for a day, let the pain take its toll, and then simply-well- MOVE ON! They don’t give a frick about Revenge, hurt or crying over the past. They just accept the way things are. They are the masters of emotions.

And then there is Three. The Pity-ers.

The Pity-ers is a clever breed of people who deal with hurt simply by PITYING. That is right. These are those confident ones, who go through hurt, pretend to ‘Pity the people’ who hurt you and then implode. Sometimes, it works. Often times it doesn’t.

They want to seem strong, and maybe they are but in most cases, it just a defense mechanism. First comes denial. They deny they are hurt, they nod and smile, they say ‘What a pity, but its their loss that they did that’ and then at the end of the day, they cry themselves to sleep. Although not the best way, this might be a fairly good way to deal with pain. Guess what? It is your choice. So if you chose this way to deal with the mental agony, be my guest…!

And then there are the last breed of Hurt-dealers called the Machines.

Those who are machines. Yes, some people are really well at keeping their emotions in check. They just switch that side of their brains off. They just continue to lead their lives as if nothing happens. How they do that, is a secret well kept amongst their masses. Maybe they are actually robots. Hmm, that IS interesting….

 

So which one are you? I will set up a poll. YOU tell me what way you like to deal with method. Do you fall in one of these categories or have one of your own? Don’t worry, it is all anonymous so no one will know your secret!

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What is your take on Salman Khan’s recent arrest?

Hello, Bleedsters!
Exams are still in progress so I will drop by to ask you a small question, the answer to which I am desperately seeking. I don’t mean to spark controversy or a war, so be nice…

If you have anything to share or suggest, don’t let the comment section below remain empty! It desperately needs your attention 😀
Love,
Kunal

It has been 12 years since Salman Khan drove his car over the five men, who had been sleeping over the footpath and finally, we got a verdict! Salman Khan was sentenced to 5 years in Jail, before getting granted interim bail. But that is not the point of this post.

What I would love to know is, IS THIS RIGHT? I myself will not comment on whether granting bail to a person who killed 1 and injure four is correct ethically or otherwise, however I feel this is a strong point to discuss. And anyways, it has been so long since my last poll (which you guys liked) so I am trying a bit of controversiality (okay, I totally made that word up) in my posts!

I would like to present two major points though, one in favor and one against:

1) It HAS been 12 years and Salman Khan WAS drunk. And if you have ever been THAT drunk, you will know that you are never in control with so much of alcohol content in your body. Besides, the footpath is not a place to sleep (a weak point) and since then, he has apologized and done a lot of charity, humanitarian work!

2) However, driving while drunk is also against the law. AND on top of that, driving on a footpath is also very very illegal. And that too at night, with so much of alcohol in you? And is it really right if I kill someone and then do charity work, because last time I checked, doing something very bad and then doing something very good after that for someone else does not make the bad go away!

I will let YOU choose. Please do comment down below and tell me YOUR views!

Note that I have added a third option, ‘Other’ and if you tick it, you HAVE to give your view on it in the comment section below! 

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